Heart's Desire

I sat here last week trying to write an entry about the desire of my heart. I was totally at a loss for words. I couldn’t put two thoughts together that made any sense.
That was then.
For the past two days I have been working out the details of my new venture. In less than a month I’m going to go for grant proposal training. I am going to start a Grant Writing Service.
I have a name: Nexus Grant Writing Services
Nexus comes from the Latin and it means connection, center, core, link, network, union. It is from the past participle of nectere, to bind.

I have a Mission Statement: My purpose is to connect those who serve with the resources that make it possible

I have a foundational scripture verse/principle: 2 Corinthians 9:8
And God is able to provide you with every blessing in abundance, so that by always having enough of everything, you may share abundantly in every good work.

I have the beginnings of a Business Plan. I have started acquiring a library. I have contacted personal resources.

I have asked a few close friends to pray. I would welcome, accept, and appreciate other prayers for guidance. One of the hurdles I asked them to pray about was the funding for the workshop/training seminar next month. I have received the money to make that possible. Not as a loan but as an investment.

Tonight, I googled Nexus and I found this really cool sculpture. It was all intertwined and connected. And as I sat and looked at it, I began to get all teary. It was clear as clear could be I had found my heart’s desire—and I knew what it was all along.



For as absolutely long as I can remember, I have longed for and craved connection. My family’s dysfunctionality was and is expressed in disconnection. My favorite movie growing up was “The Wizard of Oz” and I think it was because I could relate with Dorothy’s search for a sense of belonging and connection.

How do you know when you are experiencing the Will of God? One of the assurances for me has always been the way things fall together. Now, I'm not saying walking in the will of God is easy or without times of questioning. I just mean that it has seemed through the course of my life when God has wanted me to change directions circumstances fall into place, as if a bridge were being built right in front of me step by step by step. And the only thing that makes sense is to take those steps. Nothing about the steps may make sense (financially, or locationally, or changewise), but to not take the steps would make the least sense of all.

I have been looking for a job. It has all been dead ends. We knew from the beginning the factory work was not going to last or be full-time. It doesn't appear that the quality inspection job is going to pan out either. I had to stop focusing on what I could do and begin to consider what I could. And this plan began to unfold before me: step by step.

So how cool is it that God has not only given me my heart’s desire, but begun to let me have a peek at the plans He has for me?! Answer: Way absolutely cool!